I've had a lot of time to think about my life since this happened, I had a lot of time to think while I was in rehab, especially as we drove to some outing or another. I remember one day , we were going on an out ting to a local museum, I was ecstatic, to get to leave the confines of my hospital room for the day, to breathe , fresh, ocold, winter air and I got to take Charlotte with us! So, it would be her first trip to the museum! As we drove to the museum, I gazed out of the window of the van that took us there, I watched the familiar landscape of my hometown glide past me and I thought about my life, about the people I've met and the experiences I've had. I pictured my life as a tapestry. If I could weave my life into one of those glorious things, I thought, it would have tons of bright colors, twists and turns and surprises in it. And it would be beautiful. Are there things I would change about my life? Srure. I would have quit smoking waaay earlier than I did, I would have, not taken birthcontrol pills for as long as I did, I would have dealt with that one break-up waaay better than I did, oh, and that one SUPER bad decision I made many years ago, that still plagues me to this day....yeah, I would have done things differently, but really, even though all roads have lead here, I wouldn't take much back, because all of those decisions lead me to marry Matt which brought Charlotte to me, and my life is a beautiful comglomeration of stupid mistakes, awsome friendships and people I am happy I met and, I gotta say, I've got some damn good stoeies as a result!S, do I live with regret? Sure. who doesn't?
My point? Life is beautiful and anytime life's got you doen, think of how beautiful the tapestry of your life would be and be thankful for every moment!